Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I saw a ghost today

Today I was sitting in my car in the parking lot at school and reading about ways to prove or disprove the existence of God. The argument isn't whether he exists or not, the argument is how to prove or disprove in the most effective manner. Anyway, that has nothing to do with anything. The driver's seat was pushed back, my legs stretched out, book open across the steering wheel, when a young person walked between my car and the one right beside me. I hadn't heard or seen him approaching, and I would have because he came from in front of me, from the next parking lot. He had to cross through the median and it's crunchy from leaves and bark dust. No sound, even with my windows rolled down. I glanced in the side mirror and he was already gone. I turned around and looked, gone. I looked up and down the row of cars. No one. It was totally weird and totally cool. I don't know that he was really a male, but I got that impression. I found myself wishing he would've gone slower and maybe I could have had a better look. Really, I'm not entirely positive it even happened. Although, i'm not saying it didn't, as it did. But it was just weird. Not weird in a bad way, just different. I rather liked it. I guess I kinda miss dead people.

Weight loss


I'm taking an Interpersonal Communications class and we have to set some communication goals. So one of my goals is to lose fifteen pounds. What does that have to do with communication? Well, part of my strategy was to track my weight loss publicly. I was going to put it on our "family" blog, but decided against that, as I don't need endless ribbing. Not that I'd get it, but I've seriously been saying I want to lose weight for the past couple years and I've not done it. So, I'm going to get one of those Nike/Ipod things that go in your shoe and then you get to make a little person who looks kind of like a Mii, but that little person will track my runs and I can attach it to this blog. I have to figure out how to do all this, well I guess I could just ask Steve, but I'd rather try it myself first. Well, technically I guess first I have to get a different Ipod as mine isn't a touch so it's not compatible with the nike thing, and then I have to get the nike thing, but not the nike shoes, because I'm so not a fan of their shoes. But I read you can put the little chip on your shoelace, so that's what i'll try.

A few years back, a buddy and I tracked our running mileage versus our weight and it really encouraged me to want to see the mileage rise and weight fall. So I'll also figure out how to attach a chart to this blog.

So, my goal is to lose fifteen pounds. But my real goal is to recognize the power of communication in setting and achieving that goal. So here goes...

Sunday, July 12, 2009

where am i going with this blog?

I so don't know what to do with this blog anymore. The writer (writer???) in me wants to continue writing...something... but the realist in me recognizes that i don't have much of interest to write about. And what i do find interesting, i probably can't write, because it probably is about our marriage group or about my anger management group. They are hilarious, the angry ladies. We continued meeting together weekly, even though we finished our anger class. Now we're doing a book called Choosing to Forgive, and we named ourselves Steel Magnolias. Well, i didn't choose that name and i didn't even vote for it, but it didn't matter. One husband said, it's more like lead-in-the-ass magnolias, which is probably somewhat true. Mostly i just refer to them as magnolias. My family has already accepted the name and hopefully no longer think i'm totally weird by having a group of friends who've named ourselves. Well, it was just to weird too continue referring to each other as "my anger mgmnt group", so magnolias, it is.

My middle daughter is getting married at the end of the month. I may kill her before the big day. That probably figures into anger management somehow.

I'm in the summer term of school, only the fall term left to finish my AA degree. I'm pretty worried about the financial strain it's putting on our home. Our goal is for me to continue going and work towards a bachelors. Maybe before I'm 50, I can really finish. Sometimes I feel like a good example to our children. Sometimes I just feel like a loser.

I'm taking a philosophy of religion class. It's broadening my horizons and confusing me. All at the same time.

My dog is still dead in the backyard. I can't believe how much I still miss him.

I can't cook worth a damn, but I'm trying.

This is kind of like my own little post secret segment.

I started running again. Yes, I'm planning to call myself a runner again. I'm tired of being a blob. I want to feel good in my clothes. I want to feel good in my skin.

that's all.